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December 29, 2011

Yesterday was my visit to the oncologist. I can honestly say I had accepted whatever path the Lord had planned for me (though obviously less excited about some than others). It was very busy at the office, so my 9:00 a.m. appointment turned into a 10:30 appointment. And then I saw the Dr. for a full 8 minutes. πŸ™‚ But in that 8 minutes he shared with me the results of my OncoDX test (the 2nd genetic test).

For me, the OncoDX should help predict my chances of getting cancer in other parts of my body. He said that he hadn’t seen any of HIS patients with OncoDX numbers this low in a really long time! My percentages fall in the 4-8% range – provided I take the aromatase inhibitor for the next 5 years [Arimidex]. It also means that, as far as we can test with today’s technology, there was NOT a genetic link to my cancer. And therefore my children (and my brother’s children) do not have an increased genetic risk of getting breast cancer. This is something I’ve prayed about for YEARS. I honestly prayed to this end before I ever had children. So, once again, God has most graciously answered one of my prayers with a resounding YES!

I am thankful that I can trust my heavenly Father with my life, and my children’s lives, whether the outcomes are humanly “happy or sad.” I’m thankful that I can rest in His love and care knowing that what He chooses for us is best for us. But I’m also genuinely thankful when the path He allows is the gentler path – or the one I selfishly asked for. I also know how much it delights me to make my children happy, and I’m reminded of that aspect of God … how much He delights in giving us good things!

Prayer requests – I am still dealing with some swelling, some pain, and continued lack of stamina (very humbling). Also, please pray that the side effects of the Arimidex are minimal (sometimes women actually go off the meds because the side effects are so severe). Thanks so much for praying! God has been so amazingly good to me. I am so thankful.


Dec. 17th

Just wanted to say hello and thank each of you for praying. So far so good. I will go back and have my stitches checked later next week. But I know all of your prayers are keeping me going.

Right now I am having a fair amount of swelling and pain. I realize that I’m basically back at square 1 for healing skin, so I must again focus on patience. I’m trying to use as little pain meds as possible, but I simply cannot go without yet.

I am excited to head to church tomorrow for our Christmas Program. I miss everyone at church sooooooo much! And “my little kids” are a big part of that, too. One of my favorite names to be called is “Miss Kay” – what all the little ones call me at church. Please pray for strength and stamina for the day.

One of the blessings of being slowed down was the mandatory slowing of the holiday hustle and bustle. It has been such a treat to do what little shopping I’m doing online, and then just focus on the real reason we celebrate. For me, the simplicity of John 3:16 says it all, “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” That’s the only gift any of us ever need.

Wed., 12/14

Hi! I’m home in my own house about 7 hours later. Everything went well.

I was actually amused … today was a terrible day. Lots of things went wrong. If I believed in “circumstances” I would have canceled surgery and tried for a better day. But I kept reminding myself that God had ordered my steps to this point, that HE would care for me … and to STOP focusing on circumstances. I just kept quoting Scripture, reminding myself dear friends and family were praying, and hung on to the hubby pretty tight.

And, God was faithful and true to His Word – despite all the circumstances.

Now, I also know I’m feeling ok physically because I’m quite drugged (lol). And I don’t intend to let it wear off for a day or so. Sooooo … as they say in the movie-making business, time to “fade to black”.

Thanks so much for praying today. God answered most graciously. He has been so very good to me!

Dec. 13 … update

Well, “Ask and ye shall receive!” My surgery is TOMORROW, Wednesday. I asked you to pray with me for the earliest surgery date – honestly, I don’t think it could be any earlier considering I didn’t see the doctor until mid-afternoon today! Thank you for praying. And thanks to the Lord for such a specific answer!

I have to be at the hospital before noon (Mobile Infirmary, for locals). I’m hoping they’ll let me come home tomorrow night, but that depends on how I do.
Please pray for all the “usuals” … guidance for doctor and surgical staff. GOOD I.V. stick person!!! πŸ˜‰ No infection in skin already. And for everything to just go smoothly (and the people to be nice) πŸ™‚ My hubby has been way beyond amazing in all of this, but he is also fighting sickness (and I’m sure exhaustion in caring for me). Please pray for him, too.

Third surgery in about 3-4 months isn’t something I’m excited about, but God has been so good to me. His presence and faithfulness has been tangible.
Psalm 55:22 has been so true, “Cast thy burden upon the LORD, and He shall sustain thee: He shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.”
I’m so grateful He helped me understand how to be made righteous. I cannot imagine taking this journey without him.

Love to you all (or as we say here … y’all)! πŸ˜‰

Dec 13 – quick post

Off to the Doctor today. Will report later. But I’d sure appreciate prayers for the earliest surgery date possible. Β Also, prayers for an insurance/testing situation. Thanks much. Will update later.

December 8, 2nd post

OK, last post sounded kinda “all over the place” … sorry. No excuse except pain meds. LOL

There have been some disappointments, and it’s been a rough few days. But when I least expect it, God continues to encourage. Friends and family have been so encouraging – and totally in areas “out of the blue.” I LOVE it when it’s so evident that it was God’s hand.

I have about an hour at home alone. That really hasn’t happened yet. So God and I were talking (again- I’m so glad He doesn’t get tired of our chats). Just an all over the board conversation, but it was just the 2 of us, and I knew He was taking care of me. The doorbell rang, and here was an expression of love from an “adopted” daughter. And this is just one example of TANGIBLE, hands-on ways God has reminded me (us) that He is right there with us – that we are not on this journey alone.

I’m so thankful that the God I have the privilege of serving is alive and well and oh so real in every aspect of each day (in the good and bad times). He is so amazing, and we are so privileged to be a part of His plans. If cancer is the journey He has for me right now, so be it. I’d rather have cancer and be smack dab in the middle of His plans!

Psalm 34:1-3 I will bless the LORD at all times: His praise shall continually be in my mouth. My soul shall make her boast in the LORD: the humble shall hear thereof, and be glad. O magnify the LORD with me, and let us exalt His name together.

December 8, 2011

We (Hubby, Katy, and I) met with the Oncologist yesterday. Big disappointment day. The OncoDX test that was supposed to have been ordered BEFORE surgery was never ordered. It is NOW being ordered off stored pathology. We are within the timeframe for doing this, but we are also now pushed 3 weeks back on treatment plan. Quite frustrating.

From the Oncologist’s office we went to the Cosmetic Surgeon’s office and I had my drains removed! Yay! Yes, there is still a lot of pain, but having the drains removed is such a relief! However, some of my skin is dying, so I will have to have ANOTHER surgery to address that. We’re not sure of all the details, but that dead skin will have to be removed. This also pushes back the timeline for reconstruction.

Also, many of you may not realize that we found the Breast Cancer while I was still healing from my hysterectomy. I am not a “four walls” kind of person. I love to be out and about. I enjoy being with people. I even love working. So, being IN recuperating is a challenge for me. The ladies from church were so sweet to send me a picture from the Ladies’ Ornament Exchange I couldn’t attend–complete with pouty faces … it was adorable!

A sweet friend posted on her FB wall yesterday the wonderfully rebuking verse, “But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31
I guess the Father has some serious renewing for me. I am looking forward to the rest of the verse, but I have to do the waiting part now – willingly. And I truly want to learn what He has for me IN the waiting.

Some of you may not know – a dear family member flew Ally in for a quick visit. What a surprise! and a treat! She left Tuesday. Katy leaves Friday (after caring for me for 2 weeks!). Please continue to uphold my hubby in prayer. He is my personal anchor. He is so faithful and caring. I can’t imagine a husband caring for his wife with more love. I am so blessed.

OK, sorry this was so long. I’ll lay low for a while.
My love and gratitude to each of you.